I’m in love with rainbow cakes! ♥ (Taken with Instagram)
My chocolate rainbow cakeeee! (Taken with Instagram)
I regret everything.
I’m not good in handling heartbreaks. I’m just a great failure.
My life is so vague. Its so hard to step in into a whole new world.
I regret meeting you. I regret knowing you. I should’ve know better.
I have to admit that you were one in a million and I can’t deny that I still love you.
You told me that you’ll always be there for me but when I step in, something is always there to fight about.
I just miss us. I miss everything. I just want to hear your voice. I want to know whether everything’s fine with you.
I guess you have your own assumptions and i’m okay with it.
But if you think I’m a bitch for stepping in into you life and you thing I’m playing with your fucking feelings, then you have no fucking feelings. I felt slapped in the face. Well, assume whatever you have to assume.
I regret meeting you.
Goodluck on everything you do.
Forget about love. I won’t love you anymore.
Just the usual lonely midnight.
Long time no blogging. Things are pretty rough, as usual. I’ve opened a new chapter in life and now its my duty to carry out several things.
Had a new haircut. Look at my new look. Took it with instagram.
I hope you life my new short haircut. It looks kind weird, don’t you think?
Baked cakes too.. Summer holidays are always boring so I occupied myself with cakes :3 Learnt a lot about cakes this holiday lol
Well, i’m trying to live the way things used to be. Things are rough. Love is just a stupid fucking game. There will always be a victim in love. Someone who’ll pay all the pain. Someone who’ll cry every night. Someone who’ll be teared into pieces. Love is shit. How can I believe in happily ever after when I can’t even get one? Forget about love. Life is just a filthy journey. No love. Nothing. Fuck everything.
I don’t know why I’m flooding in tears tonight. Its just so absurd. I kept on lingering on the past. I still hated the fact that you shouted so hard last night. I thought you were different. I thought you were the right guy who’ll treat girls right. I don’t care whether you’re emotional as fuck but its just a total blunder to shout on girls. I was just to shocked and burst out into tears. Pffftttt i’m so mushy, right?
I must have been a bitch lately. Well, i’ve learnt my flaws. My tongue is just sometimes out of control. I just kinda spit words without thinking them first. Sorry. I promise I’ll rectify my mistakes real soon.
Oh yeah, been a really big fan of pororo lol i know its for kids and its just unsuitable for me who’s just above the standards (age problems lol) lol i’ve always wanted a pororo doll :3 Oh gosh, I want to be in Korea right n(because pororo is sold only in korea) :( me want pororo doll in koreaaaa :(
isn’t pororo cute? :3
Goodnight world :)
Should I mention this?
Its already 22 days, 16 hours and 56 minutes since we’ve both separated.
Things have been pretty rough on me.
Without you, life stinks.
My world is a great mess now.
Every single thing about me is nothing compared to what it was before when I was still with you.
The past two days we chatted, remeber? That was the only day I felt loved. It was head over heals wonderful.
You didn’t change.
You were like who you used to be.
It’s great to exchange jokes with you.
Honestly, I have to admit that your teasings were a pleasure.
I really love you just the way you are.
You don’t have to change. I love your personality. It was an enchanting experience to meet you. It was a fairytale.
Nothing changed between us.
The day you called me, remember? I cried like an idiot. But in the end, we were just the same. Sweet as always.
Maybe the love between us was powerful. Vicious as a glue.
I just don’t understand why fate stepped in and crashed everything that we’ve built so hard.
I don’t understand why we weren’t meant to be together.
Maybe things were rough between us. I tried to fight against everything. I tried standing up for us.
But I guess its time to let my armor and sword down. I want you to find happiness.
I know what’s best for you. Unfortunately, that includes me stepping out from your life. I’m sorry.
Let me be honest, I’m just so over you.
I can’t survive without you.
Things have been pretty ridiculous and complicated without you.
You’re a necessary. An addiction.
I wish we were together.
I guess fate turned the cards upside down.
You know that everything about us is over. But its just difficult to accept the fact that you’re gone. I can’t see or picture you holding hands with another girl. I know that you are happy with her. it’s tough to accept everything. I just can’t endure the pain, seeing you with someone else. I may look happy from the outside but pain is running through my flesh and my blood.
Em, sorry to say that.
You may search for someone new. You deserve better. I didn’t mean to stop you or anything. You may search for a new girl. Just don’t give your heart easily. Find someone who will accept you. Someone who really cares about you. Promise?
Promise me several things, okay?
Promise me you’re done with cigars and stuffs.
Promise me you won’t turn back and regret anything.
Promise me that you’ll find someone even better that me. You know you deserve better.
Promise me you won’t fall in love easily and deeply.
Promise me that you won’t change your personality.
One last important promise you have to make. Promise me you wouldn’t forget me. Mark me as someone special in your history. Make me a character in your history. I may inflict pain in your history or past but remember that behind everything, I still love you deeply.
Sorry for writing too much.
I can’t sleep :(
I wish you were here with me.
By the way, did you receive my phone call yesterday? I tried calling you but you didn’t answer. Sorry to disturb, thou.
Oh yeah, I’m having my electone examination tomorrow. Wish me luck, boy.
I love you, Carl.
Always and forever ♥