Hey.
Should I mention this?
Its already 22 days, 16 hours and 56 minutes since we’ve both separated.
Things have been pretty rough on me.
Without you, life stinks.
My world is a great mess now.
Every single thing about me is nothing compared to what it was before when I was still with you.
The past two days we chatted, remeber? That was the only day I felt loved. It was head over heals wonderful.
You didn’t change.
You were like who you used to be.
It’s great to exchange jokes with you.
Honestly, I have to admit that your teasings were a pleasure.
I really love you just the way you are.
You don’t have to change. I love your personality. It was an enchanting experience to meet you. It was a fairytale.
Nothing changed between us.
The day you called me, remember? I cried like an idiot. But in the end, we were just the same. Sweet as always.
Maybe the love between us was powerful. Vicious as a glue.
I just don’t understand why fate stepped in and crashed everything that we’ve built so hard.
I don’t understand why we weren’t meant to be together.
Maybe things were rough between us. I tried to fight against everything. I tried standing up for us.
But I guess its time to let my armor and sword down. I want you to find happiness.
I know what’s best for you. Unfortunately, that includes me stepping out from your life. I’m sorry.
Let me be honest, I’m just so over you.
I can’t survive without you.
Things have been pretty ridiculous and complicated without you.
You’re a necessary. An addiction.
I wish we were together.
I guess fate turned the cards upside down.
You know that everything about us is over. But its just difficult to accept the fact that you’re gone. I can’t see or picture you holding hands with another girl. I know that you are happy with her. it’s tough to accept everything. I just can’t endure the pain, seeing you with someone else. I may look happy from the outside but pain is running through my flesh and my blood.
Em, sorry to say that.
You may search for someone new. You deserve better. I didn’t mean to stop you or anything. You may search for a new girl. Just don’t give your heart easily. Find someone who will accept you. Someone who really cares about you. Promise?
Promise me several things, okay?
Promise me you’re done with cigars and stuffs.
Promise me you won’t turn back and regret anything.
Promise me that you’ll find someone even better that me. You know you deserve better.
Promise me you won’t fall in love easily and deeply.
Promise me that you won’t change your personality.
One last important promise you have to make. Promise me you wouldn’t forget me. Mark me as someone special in your history. Make me a character in your history. I may inflict pain in your history or past but remember that behind everything, I still love you deeply.

Sorry for writing too much.
I can’t sleep :(
I wish you were here with me.
By the way, did you receive my phone call yesterday? I tried calling you but you didn’t answer. Sorry to disturb, thou.
Oh yeah, I’m having my electone examination tomorrow. Wish me luck, boy.

I love you, Carl.
Always and forever ♥